Ok. Now I am procrastinating. How can amazing things ever happen to me when the highlight of my day is snooping on my son's MYSPACE page? I did go to Lowes and get new moulding for the downstairs bathroom.We painted it a light tan and it looks really nice. I have been reading the "Dummy" book and there is some good stuff. Suggestions about how to approach Agents and Publishers and even a short list of names to get started with. The thing is, I don't think I can handle the rejection. It isn't that I am fragile or anything (believe me, I have handled some major burdens lately and it made me a stronger person) but the last time I sent stuff out I got a stack of rejection letters. I am terrified that this is my last chance. I am thirty-something and dreams don't come true everyday, ya know? I need something to look forward to, to strive for. I have to believe I can make my tomorrow better based on what I do today. If things do not work this time around I may lose motivation all together. Of course, that is kind of a cowardly approach to take. I am just feeling lowwwwww....winter in Buffalo. It is bad.I think I suffer from SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) due to a lack of vitamin D. Maybe a tanning bed would help...
Anyway, I'm going to go and read another chapter of the "Dummy" book. Then I am going to do some real writing...and then maybe check my son's MYSPACE page and see if he has any new posts. OMG I am such a LOSER.
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Searching for the Sunny Side
Life happens, sometimes when we least expect it to. It seems as though we are constantly waiting for things to get better, for the next big thing, for our dreams to come true. Are any of us really where we want to be in life? Does anyone have the perfect relationship, the dream job or the ideal life? There seems to be a blessed few who really have and are everything they hope to be. Most of us continually strive for improvement, on a constant uphill journey to balance demands and necessities of predictable life without sacrificing the things that make us who we are. It can be hard not to lose ourselves in the shuffle and not short-change our innermost dreams. IS being happy with your daily life "settling" or "selling yourself short"?? Should we always be working towards a goal or is there a time to accept the lot we've been given and call it contentment? A teacher, a mother, a student. I believe in true love, following my dreams and making them come true. Life is not always fair and I am constantly struggling to manage work and home, motherhood, money and motivation and the drama and stress that is life today. It can be crushingly cruel and ideals are often swept away into a tidy pile in the corner of the day along with childhood dreams and pieces of myself.
But...one little piece I hold dear. I allow myself the luxury of a thought and the indulgence of a whim to dream. I imagine I can change my life soon enough that it will matter. And for the little girls who dream of being a ballerina or a movie star and for the little boys wishing they will one day pitch for the Yankees or race in NASCAR...Let's dream big and see where it takes us. We can always be searching for the Sunny Side.
But...one little piece I hold dear. I allow myself the luxury of a thought and the indulgence of a whim to dream. I imagine I can change my life soon enough that it will matter. And for the little girls who dream of being a ballerina or a movie star and for the little boys wishing they will one day pitch for the Yankees or race in NASCAR...Let's dream big and see where it takes us. We can always be searching for the Sunny Side.
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- Keri Lock
- Western New York, New York, United States
- I am a teacher, a mother, a student and a writer. I am me. www.kerilock.com www.readthisway.com
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